Maybe Tonight...

I'm sitting on the edge of my seat.

I'm holding my breath.

I know something is about to happen.
I can feel it.
Something big.

I'm on the verge of something extraordinary.

Something that's supposed to happen
It's just holding out on me.

But it's coming

I've felt this way for a very long time. Like my life has been on a stand still in the department of tomorrow. Sure I'm changing, learning, seeing, wishing and becoming more everyday. But mostly I'm waiting. I wish I knew why. I wish I knew for what.

All I know is that I can't shake this undeniable waiting.

I feel the urge to start singing my lunges to pieces with West Side Story
Who knows?
There's something due any day, I will know right away, soon as it shoooows
It may come cannonballing down from the sky, gleaming its eye, bright as a rooose.
Could be.....
It's only just out of reach, down the block, on a beach.... under a treeeeeeee
I got a feelin' there's a miracle due, gonna come true, comin' to meeeeee!

Dear Tony, I don't think I ever really understood you until now.

Whatever IT is,
please come soon.


p.s Today is my wonderful little brother's birthday! I just want to say that I love him. That I admire his work ethic and his good heart. He is adventurous and tidy. He is intelligent and witty. He has a love for new things, history, music, and tales. He dances and sings just because they make him happy. And it makes me happy every time. I love his smile and the way he cares and thinks about others. I hope to be more like him when I grow up. You are wonderful and outstanding Jared :) I miss you. You'll probably never read this, but if you do, I just want to thank you for talking with me and supporting me and bringing so much joy into my life. Happy Birthday :)